i know there are people who actually need help. I just need to vent and I’m sorry. This story gets triggering.
2 years ago, my mom found out I was hurting myself, which I had been for months at that point. She yelled at me for over an hour,and asked me, “Do you need a therapist? Because they’re f****** expensive.” And I denied it, because I didn’t want to use up their money, as I knew money was tight.
Later that night, I tried to hang myself. I couldn’t do it, I wasn’t even comfortable enough to lay in my own bed. I fell asleep crying on the floor.
Now, my mom would take me and my younger brother to the school she worked at over the summer, and we would sit around while she worked. I told her the next morning that I didn’t want to go. She wanted to talk, so we went upstairs and talked privately. I told her what happened, and yet again, she started scolding me, things like “you’re life is perfect,” and “other girls have it worse,”
I never did ask her for a therapist, or talked to a counseler at school. To this day, crying takes me back to that night, and I fall into the same feeling everytime. Every time someone raises their voice at me, I end up crying, but just say I’m sensitive.
Sorry for bothering you with this. Just needed to vent and type this out.
