I’m always seen as happy. No one knows this but I wake up tired and not much motivation. Today it was 112 degrees f and I went outside to clean. I got dehydrated but I’m forcing myself to clean all of the stupid junk my dad brings home. There’s rust piling on rust and tools never used just trapping heat or fit as homes for pests. I’ve tried so hard to tell him but he won’t listen to me! My stomach always fights me for some good meals but my mind, it says to ignore it as I get lazy from being full. I feel like I’ve gone more skinny and I feel so proud of myself. My parents swear from being in ‘hot weather’ while for me, it’s just a warm day. I hate my dad so much! He is always burping loudly, shirtless, brings literal trash to home, never thinks about getting us new clothes even after having the same ones for three years, and I’m sick of him. It was my moms mistake for being with him. She said she married him since he was handsome but she shouldn’t have given herself like that. He’s very obnoxious and very cheap. He keeps his money away from us and only gives barely enough money for groceries. I don’t want to live on like this. Our fridge and shower are not working any more, lights sometimes flicker, outside is always looking like a dump site, cars that don’t even work are sitting around, the house is cramped, we got robbed three times because of my dad, my grades have gotten low due to their constant arguements and always having to add me in, I can’t walk straight, can’t think correctly or comprehend anything the right way, my talking comes in baby slurrs, everything is a total wreck. I’m trying to convince my mom to divorce him by the problem is where would we go? There’s no home for us to go, no family to run since they’re in a different country, no way to earn money because my four year old sister can’t be left alone at home, so now we’re stuck here with a huge sad sack of potatoes.
Please oh please, someone tell me how to convince someone easily, I need to convince my dad to act young, be free, to trust us, love us, and stick with us but I’ve been consumed by my darkness. Even a small tip that you think is useless will be a big help to my big puzzle. I want to help them but divorce seems like a good idea right now…
