I want to die so bad. I think about committing suicide every single day. I fantasize about dying in different ways. The only thing stopping me from killing myself is the fear of failing and becoming a vegetable or paraplegic. I have no reason to live. I feel trapped in my body with no escape and I long for the sweet freedom of death. I just wish I had a foolproof method. Every single day is agony. Please take me, Lord.
