I’m thinking about carving the names of my rapists into my skin. It’s been over a decade, and no amount of therapy has helped me. There’s so much talk of rape in the news, I can’t escape it. Maybe I should embrace it. They left a mark on me that will never go away. I want to scar their names into my skin to make it tangible.
I’m not sure if I’m going to. I’ve already carved the word rape into my body in multi places. I keep thinking what if I did it, and they somehow saw it. Would they feel validated? Disgusted? Scared?
I’m not worried about the social repercussions. No one wants me, so no one is going to see me naked anyway. Maybe a doctor or whatever but that’s none of their business.
I might do it.