I’m a nice guy.
I met a guy at the gym. He became my best friend; we did most things together for more than a year. He is amazing in personality.
We had so much fun and I learned a lot how to enjoy life with him.

Now I love him. He looks really good too.
He had a girlfriend recently. I felt a little excluded, but I tried to cope with it.
We still had fun, and we traveled together for a vacation.

Now he traveled far away and might not come back.
We Skype from time to time. But I miss him.
I’m still hurt, I can’t get myself busy with work or anything else.

I hate being gay, but i get disgusted thinking of girls s*******.
And I still love him, while he’s away. Even if he’s here, I know it’s no use…
But still. Love is involuntary.
He’s just an almost perfect person. I know you might think that I’m thinking that about him because I’m in love, but all his friends think the same.

It’s been around 2 months now. I still haven’t got over it.
Sometimes I feel better, sometimes I cry.
It hurts. Really hurts.
I thought time heals…
but it’s getting worse…
I don’t know how to get out of it.

help.