Hey. I don’t know what’s going on in your life, but from the little that you said and from personal experience, this to me seems like you want to die, but you don’t want to kill yourself. That tends to be a sign that deep down you don’t really want to kill yourself, but if you actually do, please don’t. If you can’t stay alive for yourself, do it for the others around you who love and care for and about you. If there are no other out there like that for you, then do it for those who will love you in the future. The pets you might adopt, the people you might make laugh, and the people you could stop from harming/killing themselves in the future. Lives will be changed by you, and even if you don’t see or know that now, then I encourage you to just hang on a little bit longer, and to make it a goal to be a positive impact on someone else. I totally get where you are coming from, and if you want to talk, reach out to a hotline, professional, or someone you trust. If nothing else, you can reach out to me. I’d always be happy to listen, even if you just need to vent. I really care and hope that you see how much everyone else does too.