whenever i feel like things in my life are going good, something ridiculous happens and knocks my world to the ground all over again. maybe im crazy. somedays i just cant handle it. and i get reminded all the time how messed up i am. my mirror and my thoughts are my worst nightmare. i dont know what to do somedays. when i step back and look at what i have, i see that i have a lot, a lot more than other people have but for some reason that just isnt enough. i feel lost and confused. i just need someone on the outside to tell me what to do, i need someone to show me, to explain. i need some help :’/