I have experienced so much pain in my life and I don’t know if this is ever going to slow down. It seems that every time I turn around, something horrible happens. I feel sick to my stomach yet so numb any time I think about those things… I’m currently trying to come to terms with the fact that there’s p********** of me when I was 11 being shared in cp rings. I don’t like to think about it, but I’m absolutely terrified that some day, someone is going to find out and find those videos and pictures of me. I hate myself and I feel so disgusting, even though I know it wasn’t my fault. I can never have a normal relationship because of what I’ve experienced, and I’m always going to be haunted by these things. I’ve spent so long trying to fix myself but every time I seem to improve, something s***** happens and I’m back where I started. I don’t even know why I try anymore.

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