So I found out about a hour or two ago that my grandma has been in the hospital for three weeks and has been unresponsive for three days. She is on life support. My dad and one of my uncles are waiting on my third uncle to get to the hospital before they shut everything off. I haven’t seen her in a year. I haven’t talked to her in several months. I’m scared to see her in the hospital so I’m probably just going to sit in the waiting room. Or outside her door. I also only cried off and on for about thirty minutes or so. I feel really guilty and like I’ve done something wrong. Or I’m in the wrong. I’m also only 16 so I feel confused and lost on how I should react or what I should do. I’m also scared. Really really scared. And I’m sorry. Really really sorry. I hope she is happy. And I hope she gets her dying wish. She once told me she wanted to be cremated and spreader across one of our properties in the hill country. I hope my dad and uncles can do that for her. I hope she knows I’m sorry and that I love her.

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