I have a pretty severe self-harm problem. It’s gotten better than it was (I’m no longer an avid knife-user) but it’s still really hard-hitting and it’s times like this (typing this at 1:52 am) where it affects me the most. I’m trying to sleep but i honestly crave the feeling of sandpaper on my skin so much that it’s keeping me up and i’ve completely worn down 3 or 4 nail files. i have lied to my friends and my family that it’s gotten better and i’ve stopped but i can’t no matter how hard i try and it’s killing me, but i’m worried one day it actually will.
