I am 13 and i’m a trans male. It’s too early for me to start hormone therapy or get surgery and i feel angry and sad that things can’t go faster. I have a great life but thinking about all the years i will have to wait makes me anxious and depressed. I’m not going to kill myself, but i often think it would be easier on everybody if i just disappeared. My dad is in denial that I am his son NOT his “Little princess”. Not to mention that i live in a completely conservative area except for a few people. I’ve been asked scary things from people I barely know and 2 of my teachers HATE me. The only good part about my day is band and even in that class we get yelled at. Some of my best friends have called me a tra**y fa**ot which I haven’t even figured out my sexuality but I think I like guys and those friends still havent talked to me. Most people don’t look me in the eyes anymore. Before i came out as trans i told my mom i was a lesbian though so that brings up the problem of her thinking I’m just going to drop everything which is what she’s probably hoping for anyways!She’s asked me several times,” Has anything changed in your mind?” which I know is not about me leaving this all to be in my past but then she’ll ask ,”Why don’t you just wear a bra?” That’s nothing compared to my dad calling me and saying he feels like he’s loosing his daughter. I wanted to tell him that he never had one but i feel like that would hurt him emotionally but IT HURTS ME!Some times I put other people’s emotions before my own and it hurts me. Wow I didn’t realize how sad I was until I wrote it down but this is my truth. I have never been abused, yet by thinking of other peoples emotions over mine I abuse my mind. Also, sorry for my rant but I need to get this off my chest.

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