i honestly hate myself so much. There is no love for myself whenever i look in the mirror and even when I cake my face with makeup, there is always something wrong. I can’t even feel comfortbale even when I’m in sweatpants and a sweater. I hate taking showers because i just spend minutes looking at myself and being disgusted. I just want to cut off all the fat in my body and I’ve honestly tried to lose weight. I hate every bit of myself and I’m so tired of this. I can’t tell my therapist because he’ll tell my mom what i want to do to myself. I joke about killing myself and I’m honestly thinking about it. I could overdose on my mom’s pills. I could get a friend’s gun and shoot myself. I could get my dad’s rope and hang myself. I could a kitchen knife and slit my wrists but i can’t do it because i know im scared of doing it. I wish all of this could go away. I wish i could love myself and be happy.
