Hey there God-Universe! This isn’t any boyfriend stuff. This is about the stuff my mind and heart is putting me through. A mind that doesn’t want to stop thinking all the non-existing b******* and my selfish heart that just wants to feel the way it wants to. And on top of all this, there’s me who when see this great potentials in the world and people who she once dreamt to be, these worldfriendly-maniacs who are so f****** comfortable the way they are and not even a bit bothered about it. I mean, how do they do it? How do they become so comfortable and fearless? Strange but true, I was the exact same back then. And now I’m just clueless about every little damn thing I’m doing! I envy them sometimes, I wish I was like them! Full of life, carefree, happy, confident, just so freaking full of themselves. And ykw? People love them for that. I want to be loved too. I want respect and appreciation, admiration or some applaud would do too. I want them to give me some attention. I know I’m currently off-track in my life, and there is nothing but the dreaming, passion, wondering, patience left in me. I’ve lost that believe in me too. And I’m battling the toughest battle, the battle to love myself again! How do I make myself fall in love with myself again? By staying positive? Idk. I tried. It’s like all of these affirmations gives you a temporary satisfying feeling in oneself. Then I just bounce back to the abnormalities of both my mind and heart. My heart and mind are fighting each other. But I’m fighting the world for they are controlling and treating me like their own droid. If there’s anything I wish for today God, then it is that ‘Bring me back to life’. Please?
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Garbage post. Are you on speed?
You need to do and accomplish things you enjoy that you think are cool. No cheating. I hate preaching but you need to be fuck it honest with yourself. I hate saying that, I say it too much but you need to do it. You think racing cars is cool you would seriously like to do it? and yes, I had things that I became aware of at 3 years old that I thought would be cool, and I still do them in my 40’s, they do make me feel good about myself, and if you’re good at it, whatever it is, you want to do it and as a bonus it might score you a ton of chicks? Do it. The key to it though is you want to do it. And here’s the thing, as you get better at whatever it is, especially if its a challenge, you start to think your pretty awesome. Then repeat it in other ways and directions. You have to find things that you can accomplish (without cheating) and you start to like yourself. It has to be for you though. Sure everybody else might see it and they might think it’s cool too, but you need to want to, and you need to make enough effort to accomplish something. Learning to do it even. Getting better makes you feel good. Getting even better makes you feel better
I think you know you’re there when you have you have different people you come accross all over the place telling you you’re awesome when it comes to completely different things. Work, hobby, whatever. Guess what? You knew that, but thank you. You also know your worth. “Know your worth” is one of those stupid things I hate to read 20 something and teen girls say on Twitter, but it’s true.
I’m not going to read all that nonsense, but I will offer a hearty “fuck you!”
You’re probably one of the people who fucked with me somehow and got your ass handed to you.
You fuck with the best, you die like the rest.
Alright stay a loser then. People out there both love and hate me because I love myself.
Just trying to help you out.
in short, if you are not doing what you need to to like youself or not being a person you’re proud of and like, maybe you’re a piece of shit sucker punching people because you can’t be what you see in them, you won’t like yourself. It won’t change over night, but eventually.
You’re thinking too hard about it, my dude. People are comfortable and fearless because they don’t rely on other people to validate or feel good about themselves. They accept who they are, and actively try to improve. No deadline, no pressure, no expectation, just pure freedom to do what they love when they can. Other people “love” them for it because they are genuine in an almost child-like way.
Think for a moment how you were as a child at one point. Some people regard it as one of the most happiest times of their lives. Why? A child is open, honest (good or bad), they are not ashamed, they are open minded, curious. They don’t hold constraints of work, bills, or societal prejudices. They are free, and at peace with themselves.