I tend to smile a lot, but I’m always really depressed. I had a friend that I told about my fear of being alone, and they left. Everyone does. My relationships don’t last in any way and I’m not close with my family either. Instead of dealing with my pain, it just boils until I can’t take the heat, and then I self destruct. Then, I try to make new friends, thinking that maybe the next time would be different, but it ends up turning out the same every time. I’m starting to think that maybe having friends is a bad idea and I should just stay by myself where even thoughImalone, I don’t feel the pain of people leaving me again.
