I was placed in foster care 3 different times when I was a child in the late 1990s/early 2000s (for really stupid reasons). Each time I was removed, a little piece of my heart and soul died. I felt scared all the time for fear of some government agency ripping me from my family. I swore I wasn’t going to have children because I was afraid of losing them to CPS.
Well, this past Monday I found out I’m pregnant with my first child. I’ve been really happy and all smiles this week, but now I’m getting nervous about CPS again. What if I fail to bond with this child for fear of losing him/her? Why does CPS have to ruin lives and create lifelong anxiety? Since then, I have moved to another state. Please give me advice because I want to give my child the best life and I don’t want my own insecurites of any CPS organization to ruin my motherhood.
