My paranoia started with just an irritated underarm that I worried was a swollen lymph noid, but now part of my leg hurts when I put pressure on it, it just seemed to come out of nowhere. I cant dismiss it for muscle issues and I’m frightened that it could be much more than just pain. I can’t stop thinking about my bones snapping every time I use that leg or it hurts. I don’t want to die before I start a new life and escape. I don’t want to die like my mom did. Id rather kill my dad before Im stuck with him at my death bed. Because my hatred runs that deep. I don’t want to die, especially not like this. Not here.
