Hello everyone, I was a very happy guy when I was young. But as I grew old, I’d encounter allot of darkness in my way and still, I’m going through. I cant bear so much pain and I have a habit of not sharing my pain with anyone. my high school was fun, I used to have so many friends and I was kinda into lots of girls at that time. but as soon as I got into college, I never knew my life would turn up around so much. I live above mountains, where my college is located. I’d encounter drugs i.e ‘HASH’. Before going to college I’d so many dreams that I’ll work hard and get good grades but I never knew it was too difficult. I believe in god and he’s the reason I am still alive. I live in the hostel and this is my first time. I’ve so many friends at college but I am not getting that ‘ONE’ with whom I can share every feeling, do hangouts, and play, and we’re available to each other the whole time. I am finding that ‘ONE’ so desperately but I ain’t getting it. I just sometimes think that God might have planned a perfect time for me to find that person. I don’t know what is happening with my life and I feel like doing suicide sometimes, but I know I’ll never do, cause I love my family. I don’t want them to feel pain cause of me. they’ll be broken apart. they love me allot. these drugs have made my life so difficult that it’s hard to explain. I always dreamt of becoming a big person in life but I don’t find a way. it’s painful how life hits you so hard sometimes and you cannot do anything about it. I aim to work in Google and I’ll surely achieve it. But at the moment I am so broken and I cannot recover myself like this. it is becoming really hard to live this life, but somehow I’ve to survive till the end so that I can share my experiences with the world. sometimes it just seems that people don’t care about other and they are mean. each and every person is mean in this world. my trust from any human is getting faded after every pain I suffer. nobody helps, and its really painful to keep this thing in my mind for so long. I want to live my life to the fullest and help every guy who’s in pain out there. I just want a happy life and a friend to share my feelings with. That’s it.

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