I feel so bad for who i am, i only can hurt people, my virtual boyfriend left me because he said he likes other girl, and now he want’s me back because he just liked that girl as a friend. Well, i feel bad for everything i do, i suffer with art block like months, some people call me crazy or psycho, even my mom said i was a psycho, but i’m just a normal depressed girl with social problems, like social anxiety, phobia, and maybe anorexia. The voice in my head says i’m a stupid worthless children, that i can’t do anything by myself, that i will always be an idiot that only hurt people, i confess, i already tried to kill my cats, but idk why i did it, i wasn’t mad or angry, i just did it because yes, and now to don’t hurt the animals i just hurt myself, i already do that for some 6 years. To be honest, i just wanna die, if i will kill myself, everything will be better, my mom won’t pay the school material, or food for me, she will only spend money on her, i won’t make her cry again, she won’t suffer because of me, or will, idk. I only know that even my friends will feel better without me, and even the guy that i live, if he left me it’s because i’m a s***** person right? Every time there will be a better person than me, i never will be the perfect one for someone, i know i’m not perfect, but when we in love we think that the person e perfect, i wanna someone to say that i’m perfect even if he knows i’m not. Probably i will never find someone that will look at me like i’m the best thing in the world.

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