• 4 years ago
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im so sorry. i shouldnt be feeling this way and i lied to you, im not ready for anything yet and im scared, im scared. you do it as a joke yet i feel like that towards you, im not right to get “jealous” over her, hell, i don’t even have the rights to get jealous, but her laugh is so fkin cute, i’d be better if i knew concrete the relationship between you and her, really i’d just be all better, not even saying it as a joke. but i lied to you, why am i feeling this way? i feel guilty for lying to you, i didnt do it to benefit myself, but to make you not feel guilty, even at my own expense and im so sorry about it, im sorry and i want to cut you off, abruptly block you on everything and act like you didn’t exist, just like vaxis and cage, but you’re different, you have a life, when i told cage he wasn’t like you, he was perverted, willing to break the law for presumably his own benefit. i cant see you as simply a friend anymore, i have myself and you to blame, yet mostly myself, i could be just interpreting everything wrong, or i should just become a detective, i wait for you almost every day, hoping that we can vibe together, but i have to do that knowing that everything i do is a lie, it’s a lie, im a lie, im a big f****** lie, everyone i know i’ve lied to, i dont want to lie, i just have to, i want to be accepted and i want to be liked, nobody likes me for who i am, not because im lame but for other more personal reasons, i hate myself but at the same time i kinda don’t, i don’t like how much i’ve lied, and how i can get away with any lie, or how i can spin anything into my favor, i hate it so much i hate it so f****** much, i can’t help myself, and in turn i’m more paranoid knowing that maybe they’re faking it and they know the truth, but why hold it for so long? the chances of you seeing this is slim, and im sorry if you do see this, im too much of a coward to tell you, or anyone the truth so i’ll just say it here, i’m so, very sorry. I wish you knew the true me

All Comments

  • I never feel happy.

    Anonymous March 16, 2020 11:08 pm Reply
  • Every manager should be able to recite at least ten nursery rhymes backward.

    Anonymous March 16, 2020 11:09 pm Reply
  • Have I really became THAT lonely? I’ve been dreaming about all the boys I had entertained the idea of being romantically interested in. WTH going on with me?

    Anonymous March 16, 2020 11:09 pm Reply
  • If you like tuna and tomato sauce- try combining the two. It’s really not as bad as it sounds.

    Anonymous March 16, 2020 11:09 pm Reply
  • We have never been to Asia, nor have we visited Africa.

    Anonymous March 16, 2020 11:09 pm Reply
  • I do…everything. I’m a liar too why can’t we be friends ?

    Anonymous March 17, 2020 12:23 am Reply

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