Please help me, someone. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared. I feel like committing suicide, but I don’t want to.
A year ago, when I was 16, I injured my vagina during masturbation. I inserted something in there that shouldn’t have been. I started bleeding heavily.
I had to see a doctor and have him clean me up. I was afraid to tell how it happened so I lied to him and told him my stepfather raped me. I did it all to get back at my mom because she didn’t seem to care when my real dad committed suicide when I was 10.
My stepfather has been in jail almost a year now. It’s not fair to him or my mom, who misses him so much. He was her soulmate, not my father. My 4 year old little half brother misses his dad, too.
I’m ready to tell the truth…in a suicide note. I don’t see any other way for me. I’d be so humiliated. My family hates me, especially my mom. I just want someone to wrap me in their arms and tell me everything will be okay.