I’m in a long distance relationship. We exchange those kinds of pictures and videos and call each each other as a way to be intimate. My guilt is that I have done this with others during our relationship. I don’t do it out of lust but to help ease my insecurities in myself. I can’t help but hate myself no matter what he tells me. When he and others tell me I’m beautiful, my low self esteem and self loathing is lessened just the littlest bit. Just enough for me to not completely hate myself for just a short while. My insecurities tell me that he doesn’t truly love me and is lying to me when he says I am beautiful.
