I did something so terribly bad as a young young kid, it was so long ago and I couldn’t have been over the age of 10, I had completely forgotten all about it until now, but now I feel like a monster for having ever done it, I feel incapable of being loved, and I hate myself. I think I was a perpetrator of inter-sibling abuse. I was so young, and I didn’t fully understand the implications of what I did, but I think part of me knew it was wrong. It was so long ago that I can’t even remember how bad it was or how much of my memories of it are true, but I just hate myself so much for ever doing something so disgusting and vile. I hate myself so much. I’m a monster.
