i feel horrible honestly. im planning on killing myself 2nite and i feel selfish bcuz i have a family who cares abt me. a friend whos cares abt me A LOT. and over all a great life. so i dont know why it hurts so bad. it hurts to be alive and i dont know why and it wont go away. i have no reason to rlly be feeling this way i just DO and i hate it. i feel so guilty and selfish bcuz anytime im half joking half srs abt killing myself my friend gets rlly worried and upset and i dont want to hurt her. she is possibly the most amazing person ive ever met in my entire plain life. im going to kill myself but the thought of making her that sad is almost as painful as living. I FEEL SO FUCKING BAD
