i hate myself for not liking my father, i’m his oldest kid and he’s done nothing but make my life worse everytime i try to speak to him about how he’s hurt me i end up being the one that apologizes and now im going to have my quinceañera and i feel like s***. so far all i’ve heard from him abt my upcoming party is that im too fat, i will ruin the party bc i wont do anything but sit down, and im wasting our money. i was looking forward to this day and a big part of me still is but i just can’t deal with him
