Hello i am a teenager and ever since i was little i have hated myself and my life most of the time. Ever since I can remember I have always struggled with depression and extreme anger issues. I first thought about suicide when i was around 3 years old and have thought about killing myself almost every day since i was 6, i have tried many times but I just don’t have the courage to do it. I don’t know why exactly I’m scared of death and heights but whenever i have come close to soucide there was this edge i just didn’t have the courage to go over, it may just be a simple evolutionary instinct i don’t know exactly, but i wish that could just do it because i have done a huge amount of bad stuff and almost killed people at multiple times in my life and i know that i will do stuff like that again in the future because i can’t control myself. I am also severely depressed. I just wish I had the courage to kill myself because i feel so guilty and i hate my life and i know that i deserve it.
