since a few days ago I’ve become kind of a clean freak, I wash my hands so much that they bleed and i can hardly move my fingers without my skin burning. I don’t want to touch anyone or anything and i feel disgusting, always. I know its probably just a phase but Im not sure how to speak about it because i feel invalid or “cringy.” At first I couldn’t use public bathrooms but now i even dread using the one at home and i really don’t know what to do, i don’t want to shower because the bathtub is dirty and i don’t want to touch what someone else has, like the fridge door or my locker latch. I know this stems from a feeling of self disgust but i cant help finding people like my grandma and mom absolutely repulsing.
