All I want is to put a bullet in my head. I’m so tired of fighting.. depression just never goes away. Would it really be so bad to die? One less person in the world taking up resources and fumbling around pathetically.
…I know my loved ones would be heartbroken.. but this whole endeavor feels so pointless. And I have to keep this up for another 30-40 years?? God. Cam you even imagine? Is this all I have to live for? And maintaining this for another 4 decades? God, please, change the channel. It already feels like a bad show that’s dragged on too long.. it feels so embarrassing and honestly pathetic to keep continuing.
