• 2 months ago

I kissed my best friend… we made out actually. A couple of times. He has a girlfriend he has been with for years. This happened a couple of months ago. I was feeling lonely and touched starved. I let him kiss me and… now they are engage. I completely love her and I feel guilty for doing it. I’m not even attracted to him. It was just knowing that I could have him. We talked and I told him I wasn’t going to do it anymore. But it’s still eating me alive. I don’t deserve having her as a friend. All because I was feeling lonely.