• 4 weeks ago

I failed a test today. Not because I did bad during the test, but because I didn’t know it was today. I was expecting the date and time of the test to be mailed to me, but apparently I could’ve found it somewhere online on the school’s website.
Stuff like this, this failure, makes me hate myself quite a bit, because this isn’t the first time that I just don’t know what’s going on, resulting in me failing at something.
I bet my parents are going to ask questions, because they know I have it somewhere these days. I guess I’ll just lie, which makes me feel guilty and bad even more, but I don’t really want to deal with all the extre negativity. I just feel very fed up with myself and wish I was better at taking more responsibility for myself. I don’t know why I don’t, because usually I run away from responsibilities. It seems to be this neverending cycle.