I keep having nightmares and flashbacks about a horrific event that I tried to convince myself for years had never happened, but I know in my heart that it was real. I want to tell my closest loved ones that I was abused by a family member, but I am terrified of what that would do to my family dynamics, and what the abuser would do to me for telling about what he did. He is a violent man with a temper and criminal history, who has killed before and tried to kill me on more than one occasion for much smaller things.
