On my first real business trip, I betrayed the trust of my boss. I blew off a bunch of the conference meetings and whatnot because the whole thing was a disorganized shitshow. I ate a lot of food and drank a lot. I said some bad things to an old friend and they left me, and I deserved it. Years later and I realize I’m an emotionally abusive person. I hope I can make a therapy appointment tomorrow, and I hope it works. I don’t know what I’m going to do otherwise
