i’m happily married, but I keep thinking of this girl I went to highschool with. She’s married now too with two kids and seems happy. I am happy for her, but I regret not cowboying up and telling her how I felt when it mattered. I feel like I might have broken her heart, possibly. I never wanted to make her think “why am I not good enough” or anything like that! CHRISTINA, YOU ARE AN ABSOLUTE ANGEL AND I WILL ALWAYS CARE ABOUT YOU! I ALWAYS HAVE! Whats worse, I think I wouldv’e been ok with having kids if it were with her! I will never do anything to ruin what she has, I just want her to know I eternally regret my inaction. I can’t stop thinking about her. I love my wife, very dearly. it just hurts so much to not know how she feels. does she hate me? did she forgive me? do I deserve forgiveness? have I been forgotten? will we meet again? if we do, can we still be friends? does she miss me too? I would rewind time 20 years just to make it right, even if we ended up not being together. I just want her to know that I will always love her no matter what. I always have. since that first time we talked in 7th grade, upstairs in that double room with two teachers who had us work on some project together. I wish I could remember what your voice sounded like. I’ll always remember your smile. big and warm and full of joy! your hazel eyes smiled and shine like diamonds. Damn, I miss you.
