• 4 years ago
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So a year ago i had a boyfriend.

I didn’t love him or want him. He was really pushy to get into a relationship and others expected us to be together so i had no other choise. Every time he said he loves me it hurt so bad, cuz i didn’t and i knew i have to play this game with him. I fell for someone else, but i didn’t want to let him down so i silently suffered. I wrote songs about this other guy, then my now ex boyfriend found them and he thought they were about him, this was really painfull. He described what he would do to me in s***** way and i wanted to throw up it felt like verbal r***. He wanted me to be over at his house (more like in his bed) over night. I went rather out with my friends, we got drunk and i made out with my bestfriend. I didn’t feel guilty and i was actually more happy kissing my friend then my boyfriend. I totally forgot about him that day and i was actually happy. The next day my bf texted me that he would kill himself if i ever leave. I realised how much i hate him. He introdused me one day to his parents, they didn’t like me and they made sure that we broke up. After this i loved his parents. He was devastated, i felt bad for him, but at the same time i was really happy i don’t have to be with him anymore. He wanted to be friends after that and i was like ok why not (even tho i didn’t want to stay in touch with him at all). He started to be toxic and pushy again. Saying how much he still loves me, what he would do in bed with me, etc. I didn’t want to hide my feeling anymore so i told him that i don’t like or love him and that i don’t want him to contact me ever again. He called me a b**** and he deserves better. I guess he does. I know i done really bad things to him, but i don’t really care anymore. I am happy now.

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