A few weeks ago I got back in contact with an ex.
The reason I tracked her down was to make sure she was OK, we had been friends for years before we got together and she broke up with me and a couple years later she told me she was pregnant.
It all killed me because I was deeply in love with her.
We lost contact for over 10 years and I just wanted to know she was fine.
After we started talking we fell back into our friendship as if nothing had happened.
We talked about everything and I got some of the closure I didn’t have before.
That was before her partner saw the messages and now we aren’t talking again.
After looking over her profile I saw her family and thought “why not me?“
That thought has haunted me ever since because I have been with my wife 9 years married for 3 and have a kid.
I feel like I failed them, because now I realise though I love my wife and would die for my kid, I never fell out of love for my ex. Its just been dormant.
At no point am I going to leave my wife and abandon my child, and my ex wouldn’t leave her family either, but the guilt from that thought is eating me up inside!
