i feel like im hiding from my mum. i don’t even know if im bi but i think i probably am. i don’t wanna come out unless im sure though, but every time i talk to her i feel like im lying. she keeps asking if i have romantic interests or boy troubles and i always say no (even though i like this guy that probably doesn’t like me back, but i don’t even know if i like him, or if I’ve just convinced myself to). i feel like im hiding part of myself and im scared that im actually bi and that ill have to come out to my parents, which will be worse than if i came out as gay because i feel like my mum wouldn’t think i actually was bi and that its just a phase. my parents arent homophobic or anything, im just scared my mum wouldnt take me seriously. a couple months ago she said ‘one day when you have a husband…’ and i said ‘what if im gay?’ and she just said ‘dont be silly no you’re not’. im just afraid she wouldnt take me seriously if i came out to her. i don’t even know if i am bi though thats the thing, what if i just notice when girls are pretty?. i wish there was just a way for me to know for sure so i could stop worrying about hypothetical situations. at least if i was certain one way or the other i could at least do something about it and stop feeling this way.
