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I’m 23 and I suffer from sociopathy (got diagnosed at 12) and it made my life hell. I didn’t cry at my Mother’s funeral and I shrugged when they told me that my Grandfather was dying of cancer. I couldn’t help it. I simply didn’t feel. I can’t feel anything.

Step-Mom and Stepsis are weirded out by it. Dad understands, says his brother was like me too. Uncle Jake taught me how to live with it. I know how I’m supposed to act and supposed to feel but I can’t feel.

I thought I can’t. I thought I could never mame real friends or fall in love.

I made a connection to this one guy, Ryan. Ryan is two years younger than me and he was this bubbly optimistic and childish lad. I genuinely like him and I think I have feelings for the first time. For him. I told him about my condition but he didn’t care. He liked me.

It wasn’t intentional but i started manipulating him. Making him love me and want only me im his life. I only realised it was manipulation when he moved in with me. I’m doing what my therapist told me to avoid. I’m controlling him but I don’t feel guilty.

I know its wrong. But I can’t stop.

All Comments

  • You can’t get diagnosed with sociopathy when you’re under 18. Cute story tho

    Anonymous March 15, 2019 4:20 am Reply
    • Very true. I didn’t even notice that. They have to be diagnosed with conduct disorder or opposition defiant disorder.

      Anonymous March 15, 2019 4:24 am Reply
      • Psychologist here! He/she may have been diagnosed with conduct disorder with a strong likelihood of developing sociopathy, as in some cases you just know.

        Anonymous March 15, 2019 4:27 am Reply
        • ^^^

          Anonymous March 15, 2019 4:29 am Reply
  • Being a sociopath or psychopath is fine, so long as you avoid hurting people, just as empaths have to control their tempers and bury sadness when it’s inappropriate or extreme. You may not feel bad for controlling him, but he will eventually hurt because of it. You will not keep him if you hurt him.

    Anonymous March 15, 2019 4:23 am Reply

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