I used to be a christian and I’ve been cheating on my girlfriend and still want to.
I am a 29 year old Ghanaian man living the the United States. When I was 25, I had a christian girl named Stella back in Ghana who I planned on marrying. I was a virgin at the time and planned to lose it to my wife on our wedding night.
On my 25th birthday I traveled to Ghana to visit Stella and while we had concluded no s** before marriage, while we lay in her bedroom, she started nibbling on my ears and sucking on them I don’t know when we started kissing and my hands were groping her bare breasts.
By the next morning we were fully naked and trying to have s**. My initial nervousness, sin consciousness and guilt didn’t help and i couldn’t get an erection. I was scared for myself and was frustrated I couldn’t make love to the gorgeous creature before me
After returning to the states I broke up with Stella over the guilt I had sinned. But things just went downhill from there
I used to be a teacher back in Ghana when I was 20 and my former female students really liked me a lot. I avoided them on facebook as i didn’t want to be tempted but the desire to experience s** and prove I was physically capable was too strong.
I started flirting with these young ladies and others I could find on Facebook. During this time I also met my current girlfriend Jane who is also Ghanaian but schools in India. And we started messaging back and forth
I flew to Ghana and visited 8 different ladies. I had s** with 4 of them (one was a virgin), made out with 2, 1 was sick so no s** and the last 1 rebuffed me.
When I returned to the US and after a few months I made it official with Jane but I continued flirting with girls online
A few months later, a mutual friend of Jane and I was getting married and we both decided to go to Ghana. I made some excuse to travel on a business trip within Ghana and I had s** with one lady and got blowjobs from two others
I was knee deep in cheating now. Visiting Ghana behind Jane’s back started becoming routine
The next time I went to Ghana, I met up with Stella. She knew i was dating someone else now but was just happy to see me again. I made sure we met in a hotel and in less than 5 minutes I was all over her and we had s**. She cried a lot during the time we spent because she loved me and was upset that I’m also cheating on my new girlfriend. I slept with 3 other ladies before returning to the US
The last time I was in Ghana was in August 2018. I slept with 5 women and made out with 1 more
Jane and I are supposed to get married in 2020. She is 6 years younger than me, is a virgin and the most faithful woman I know. I justify my cheating by telling myself we’re in a long distance relationship and her schooling is delaying our marriage and I’m s******* frustrated.
I already have 4 women to see in March 2019. I don’t know if i’d be able to stop. I am no longer even s******* attracted to Jane. I don’t think I deserve her. She still believes I’m a good christian man but I’ve become a raving s** addict
Just needed to get this off my chest
