These Cigarettes are killing me but I just really need them so bad I just can’t quit. I started smoking in 1996, I was so young. I was addicted immediately and hooked for life. I’m always coughing and wheezing, but I still need them. Two and a half packs a day. Sometimes three or more. I’m always coughing constantly. I spit up blood ever morning now. Now It’s hard to walk up even a single flight of stairs without stopping and gasping for air.. I don’t want my 13 year old daughter to get addicted to smoking like me… but she’s already started and I can’t stop her. I caught her smoking again the other day… third time this week…I couldn’t punish her because I was smoking and coughing up brown phlegm when I caught her… I’m just not going to fight with her about it anymore she’s made her decision..it’s too cold to smoke outside so I just smoke in my tiny apartment or car most of the time… I can’t got 20 minuets without needing another cigarette…. my ex hated my chain smoking and now I’m all alone because nobody wants to date a sick smoker who’s a single parent with a dead end job…I’m only 32 but I’ve been sick all year with a severe sinus infection that never goes away and only gets worse and worse… I cannot breathe out of my nose or smell anything anymore and I have a pounding headache constantly. My cough is getting a lot worse lately and aim scared I might have emphysema or lung cancer. I’m worried I won’t even make it to see her graduation … but I still can’t stop. I just need my cigarettes so badly
I’m smoking a cigarette as I write this and I’m crying because I’m too addicted to ever quit.
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Dear Man, I understand your bad smoking addiction. Try Nicotex gum which will provide your body’s urg of Nicotin. But you wont be smoking at all. You need a little will power to atleast try it. Think about the little one. God may bless you. Go to church/temple, your religious place and talk to the priest/father and ask confess there. He might fix your morale. Also for sinus, first use Otrivin Nasal spray to open blocked nose. After that take hot water(not extremely hot) and inhale steam 3 times for the 2 days, then once a day for 3 more days. You sinus should subside. Repeat if required. [email protected]