• 5 years ago
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My biggest regret in life is that I always hid my cigarette smoking from my parents and friends everyone else for years, and I denied myself the full pleasure of being a smoker. I secretly smoked everyday since I was sixteen and went to great lengths to hide it my junior and senior year of high school. I should have just come clean and publicly identified as a cigarette smoker during my freshman or sophomore year of college.. or at least by my senior year of college

Instead I only had about five years after college where I lived alone in a city several hundred miles from my hometown so I could smoke as much as I wanted, whenever I wanted. I was chainsmoking at least two and a half to three packs a day and I loved it.

But then I started dating this non smoking girl who was from my hometown. So I had to hide my smoking from her. She had just graduated high school and wanted to move in with me. She was so attractive and so much younger and hotter than me I couldn’t say no…

But when she made me move back to my hometown where my non smoking parents live, that’s what doomed me to having to hide my secret cigarette addiction for another seven years and my Smoking dwindled down to a half a pack a day most days and only a pack and a half a day when I was out of town alone for work and no one would see me

I hid my secret smoking from my Employer and most of my old friends who were non smokers, only the few who were smokers knew. until finally two years ago I just got tired of hiding my smoking all the time and my nonsmoking wife had just had our baby and she had made her little sister give up smoking cigarettes so she she could be around the baby – so I just gave up

I miss smoking so much

And I hated stealing around

If I had to do it over again, I would have just publicly “come out” as a smoker sometime between the age of 18 to 21 and everything would have been better. That and I should have only dated girls who smoked. Those were my mistakes

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