So a few years ago when I was working a pretty isolated job, I was in a pretty dark place and happened to stumble upon CP online. I wish I could say I stopped right there and never looked back but I didn’t. sometimes I would go weeks or months without looking for it, I even managed a whole year but I gave into temptation again. I’ve always been really shy when it came to woman and I’ve only had s** once in my life. Not that it excuses it because nothing can excuse what I did. I stopped for good when I destroyed and got rid of the computer I used to view it but I wish I’d never done it. I try to tell myself that wrapping myself in self pity wont help anyone and that I should move on and do anything I can to try and make up for it. I donate to charities that assist to stop trafficking among other things. But I cant look at my family or friends without imagining what they would think if they found out. Especially my mom. The pain I’d cause her..I cant do that to her. But I cant keep it to myself forever without going insane. I accept any hatred you might feel. I deserve it. I just needed to confess. Thank you.

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