So I became really close with a friend of mine who was a boy. He Always made me happy and I began to not only have a crush on him but I began to love him. He was Gay so I couldn’t be with him. I couldn’t bear it and he was really popular so a ton of girls liked him. I was close friends with him but I was so selfish and wanted to be closer. I told him about my abuse at home and constantly complained to him and he supported me. I made him feel like my life was in his hands and I ruined our friendship. I hate myself so much for what I did. He was my closest friend and I ruined it. I have created sins but this had been my worse. I have told him eye to eye I was sorry. This happened a year ago. I still can’t get over it. He also affected my life because I am only 13 but I think I am lesbian. I have had crushes on so many girls and the only guy I liked was him and I loved him. But I only like girls BESIDES FOR HIM! But he is not like other boys, he doesn’t care about fame or popularity he puts others first. He is so responsible and smart and caring. Maybe that’s why I can’t get over what I did to him because he deserves the world.

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