For many years, I’ve always had sick, horrible, and twisted thoughts that most people don’t think about. I hate myself for it, I also hate it when a lot of these f****** teenage kids try to act cool and say “I wanna kill people”
It gets me so angry! It makes me wanna cry, because they don’t know what it’s actually like to have these f****** thoughts! I would give anything to not have to feel or think these things. I hate myself so much for it but then yet these f****** people are saying it out in the open like it’s absolutely nothing!
If they really knew what it was like, they wouldn’t even be talking right now. I’m so ashamed, and disgusted with myself everyday.
