I came to know this guy called Dev online and we became really good friends. I had many good friends online but never did I ever think about falling in love with this guy online. Slowly, things started turning from my best friend to I like this guy and then eventually I think I love him. We both never had a proposal for each other but we confessed our feelings to be love. I have never met him in person neither seen him through video chat. I have talked to him over the phone a couple of times and we did share some pictures of each other. We feel so much connected that I cannot explain what I feel for him. I try to think what is that thing like about him and I don’t have any idea what it really is. I never cared about looks and he looks fine. It definitely is not his looks. I don’t know how he is like in reality but one thing for sure is I know he is a wonderful soul. The kind of soul I would want to be around with all the time. Since the time we confessed our love to each other things have changed a lot in a positive way. I always felt unstable as an individual before and was lot more unhappy and negative before I met him. He definitely has brought some positive changes in my life and I will always be grateful for him whether we are together in the future or not. The very early phase of this beautiful relationship was magical. I thought about him whole day and couldn’t stop smiling. I noticed his name in every thing and I wanted to believe that whatever this is, it should be love and I don’t want it to stop. I get chills when he says I love you and I want to keep saying him that all day and so does he. We both care enough to not miss any detail of anything that happened in the day and that we did before when we were just friends. I understand what he feels like just through his texts when he is doesn’t say anything to me. He also senses if I am having a hard time and he is just so much understanding that is what I was exactly looking for in a guy. We never declared to each other that we are both in love since today coz it happened eventually. We never talked about us being in a relationship because we just kind of fell into and established a relationship. Now when I look at other men I see them as just humans and not as a possible mate I mean I don’t find others attractive. I somewhere know that he actually loves me and is so truthful and loyal to me that I acknowledge the fact that I am unknowingly to committed to a man deep inside. I haven’t shared this with anybody that I have a secrete boyfriend. I truly love him and care for him a lot. there was this one time when my network was off and we couldn’t talk for an entire day. Since we live in different countries we are in a long distance relationship. He was so worried about me and was constantly trying to find out what went wrong.On the other side I was trying hard to message him that I am fine as well. That was when I knew how much he meant to me and he cared about me.I miss him even when I am talking to him. I am want to comfort him when he feels low. I actually get intuitions of getting low feeling when he feels sad. I try to cheer him up when he is upset and he does the same. despite of everything I feel fr him and he feels for me I feel like I am not truly loving him because he is Indian and I am not. this difference can never make us come close to live together, marry , have children some day. I fear of loosing the best guy I could ever have and most of all I fear that someday all my love for him could just be like a once upon a time story, it will be forgotten like a wonderful incident I once had I just don’t want it to be called a time pass. I cannot let go him right now and he isn’t ready to leave me at any cost. He says Baby I will love you like this until fate separates us. we both know what future holds for us but as of for now the truth at this moment is I love you Dev and you are the only thing in the world I WANT.
