So I used to like my cousin a year ago and I confessed to him twice but he just ignored it and never talked about it again. After that I just stopped having a crush on him and started to concentrate on my grades and stuff but I feel so lonely like I really don’t have a crush or anything but I really miss that felling of liking someone but I really ignore the fact cause I really went trough a bad year once because of bad influences. My parents don’t allow me to have a boyfriend and that but I really wanna crush on someone, someone who I can trust and have a litle teenage good experience. I am not that good looking and stuff and I am kinda chubby that makes me hate myself cause my mom tells me that no one likes fat girls, maybe that’s why the cousin “rejected” me. I feel so insecure, I hate myself. I see my friend who also isn’t allowed to have a boyfriend with a guy that loves her, supposedly, and that fact kinda molest me I really don’t know why. I really don’t trust on people because I’ve been hurt in the past. Bruh I also hate school,I do have friends but they are not in my class, so I feel so excluded. It is hard for me just to smile these days ugh, I have such a waste of teenage and life. Thank you if you readed till the end ❤
