You don’t believe in fate, I guess. I’m not sure what I believe in. I’m of two minds, but it’s not the logical one that’s in control. I hate to admit that, I really do. No matter how obvious it is.
I’m trying to better myself in certain ways. Engage with this time and place more. My mind was a runaway train of fantasy and unhinged memory churn not so long ago. None of it in my control.
I’ve learned a lot about myself. Breaking down will do that for you. I’ve learned that I don’t have the strength of will I thought I had. I’ve learned that I would sell myself down the river for relief. I’ve learned that I would sell my soul for a cure.
And what are you? Are you a siren?
I’m trying to be healthy, here. Is there any way you can contribute that? And, am I a healer for you?
