I have a seatmate. At the start of the school year, the only reason I had in talking to him was just because he was one of my seat mates, but at the fifth month, I started having feelings and I found myself starting to smile stupidly whenever I think about him. He wasn’t the hot type of guy. He wasn’t sporty and built. He was certainly not the shy type, but he was a quiet one, and he was smart. Like, really smart – he would even let me copy off of him. I want to tell someone, anyone, but, I’m afraid it would go down like the others whom I was clearly unwanted by both.
I want to think that he also likes me, but maybe it’s just that I’m overthinking about those things, to keep my delusional self at bay.
But maybe, if he doesn’t like me, then I can only hope that what I’m feeling right now is just a silly infatuation – a crush – and that come graduation, it would all be gone.
