Three days ago, I decided to

Three days ago, I decided to let loose from my job and live like a 21 year old female. I went downtown with an old friend and her friends. I don’t drink often, but I drank way too much. I kept taking drink after drink. Then, there was this guy. I’m bigger, and he kept hanging around me, so I went with it. We made out and dance a little, but I didn’t want anything to go farther than that. Then I blacked out. I don’t remember much. I just remember waking up and not having pants on in an alley way. I have no idea how I got out there. There were cops and such, but I can’t remember anything really. I was puking and so scared. You see, up until that point, I was a virgin. I wanted to save myself not necessarily for marriage, but to wait until I found someone I could trust (marriage would have been nice though). Everything goes black again and I wake up in the hospital. The entire ride there, apparently, I was saying “I said no”. The cops apparently said that they saw everything that happened and I didn’t say no. It was my own fault. I woke up in the ER later and was a wreck. I was severely intoxicated and the realization of everything came crashing down on me. I was written a ticket for disorderly conduct and that was that. Now, my entire future can be ruined by this ticket. Now, I can’t even look myself in the mirror because I am so ashamed of myself. Now, I don’t trust any police officials, because if they saw the whole thing, why didn’t they stop it? Now, I am ruined. But it’s okay “I was into it” (Police officer). That’s my first time. I don’t remember how it happened. I don’t remember who it was with. And I woke up in the hospital with pain and a ticket that will follow me forever. Hell of a first anything, right?

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