My whole life is a lie. I have never been able to come out to my friends or my family. I am in my mid 30’s and still in the closet. I’ve pushed away friends and family members so they won’t get too close. Part of this is because I grew up in a strong Italian Catholic household. I’ve never been able to reconcile my faith and my s********. I’m a mess. It’s ruined everything about me. The worst part is that I pushed away my best friend and he was someone that I truly genuinely loved and cared for. This happened years ago but it haunts me everyday. I recently saw him at the bank and i ran out of there when i realized it was him. I hate myself. Everyday is a struggle. I’m such a waste. At this point I’m just an emotional vacuum. I can’t experience joy or sadness. I’m bitter and feel old beyond my years. Like an 80 year old man.
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The sad truth is that you will always feel this way if you don’t come out and take charge of your life. There are people that will love you no matter your sexuality. Your sexuality is completely fine and natural and you should never feel ashamed of it or of yourself. Take charge of your life and you will be happier.
T.A.
Call your friend, tell him. He knows.
Been there, done that.