my friend is suicidal and it kills me that i can’t help him much more than just texting him, since he’s in a different country. But tonight i told him to play a game with me, where we both say what we’re happy about and he said “you” and i told him to pick something else and he said “i’m happy because i don’t hate myself” and i can’t express to you how much it means to me that he actually said that tonight. i love him, and i want him to feel happy more. so that i’m happy more too.
