In June of 2011, I started dating this guy who later, in February of 2012, became my fiance. Around May and June of that year, tho, things started to spiral down and out of control. He wasn’t treating me the way someone should treat their future wife, and it took a few friends of mine to help me realise this. I confronted him about it, and he replied with things like, “I don’t care what you think” and “You haven’t given me any reason to trust you.” A few weeks after that happened, I ended the relationship with him just after a full year of a relationship with him. So starting at the end of June 2012, I was single and lonely and not interested in anyone, and I knew I wouldn’t be for a long time…
But now I’m interested in someone again…
After I broke up with my now ex-fiance, I kindof holed myself in my bedroom every day and spent tons of time online. I met some really cool people, which lead to me meeting more awesome people online from all around the world.
Very recently, I was invited to join a particular group of people online from all over the world who are fans of this one particular thing (I don’t want to say just in case anyone comes on here). There’s one guy in the group who has always been incredibly nice to me and thinks I’m an amazing person and is always there for me when I need someone to talk to. He’s so sweet, he has a great personality, and he’s pretty attractive too (although he doesn’t think he is). I’ve really become attached to him over the last few weeks and I honestly feel like he would be the perfect guy.
The problems tho are this:
– I keep getting mixed signals from him. I feel like he likes me, but I’m really not sure. He’s one of those guys who likes to hug and cuddle and stuff and I can’t tell if he’s just being friendly when he does it or not. Not to mention there’s the occasional other kinds of hints with things he says and stuff that makes me think he likes me, but I really can’t be sure.
– He lives literally across the world. This is the absolute biggest problem. I care about this guy a lot and I want to be there for him but I literally can’t physically be there for him, which really, really s****. I would give anything to just be able to go see him in person.
I have no idea what to do. I don’t want to tell him about my feelings because of that whole cliche “don’t wanna mess up a good friendship” thing, plus what good would it really do? In all honesty. If we live across the world from each other and have no means to visit one another, wouldn’t it just do more harm than good to tell him something like that?
I really don’t know, but this guy means a lot to me. He’s the first person I’ve legitimately had strong feelings for since I broke up with my ex-fiance, and he’s the first person really ever to make me feel this happy.
